The other day when I was looking at my calendar, it hit me that today marks 6 months of moving to Los Angeles. I remember exactly when my sister took this photo, in my Indiana home the day before I left. I had told her I wanted to start a blog when I moved to LA so she played photographer all day. Neither of us wanted to discuss the new reality of living 2,000 miles apart. We knew we’d deal with that later.
It’s undeniable that the past 6 months have entailed some of the most uncomfortable and scariest moments of my life. With that, they have also been some of the most liberating, soul-searching, and proudest moments. Leaving behind everything that was familiar and starting a new chapter has allowed me to realize that I’m a hell of a lot stronger than I ever thought I was. I left Indiana searching for a fresh start, an introduction into a world bigger than what I’ve always known, and I can confidently say I’m on my way to finding that.
This morning, I looked back on my very first post “Five Lessons I’ve Learned From Starting Over” and I find now, six months later, I still have to remind myself almost daily to take my own advice. To stay confident in taking the road less traveled, and find gratitude and excitement in even the smallest of things. To block out self-doubt, discouragement, and the fear of not achieving what I set out to achieve. To be self-compassionate (my greatest weakness) and realize that it’s okay to have bad moments as long as they don’t turn into bad days. Because life is too beautiful for a bad day. To focus in on what I need in this stage of life, but to not forget to love the people around me- back home and in Los Angeles.
I want to encourage you, in whatever stage you are, to keep going. Whether you’re starting a new chapter in your life, or you feel stuck in the mundane- keep going. One of the most beautiful parts about life is that we get to choose how we want to live it. We get to readjust. We get to undo and cut away the areas of our lives that drag us down. It really is that simple. You have a choice.
I often remind myself that I’m not where I want to be, but I’m on my way of getting there. I’m learning to not let the fear of failure control my life. I’m learning that you have to put yourself out there, even if that risks getting hurt down the road. Take it from someone who has played it safe nearly my entire life: do not life in fear. The goals and dreams you have for yourself were placed there for a reason, and you’ll never know until you put it all out there and go.
So. Here’s to the first six month of experiencing the new, letting go of the old, and becoming the person I always knew I was meant to be. I hope you’ll join me.