Another year. To be honest, I was hesitant about wanting to share a recap this year as I’ve done in the past. In most ways, I’ve been pretty critical about myself this past year. Wondering if I’ve done enough, learned enough, or expanded enough to share my ‘life lessons.’ But, I’m a big believer that even in harder seasons, you gain so much. I’m incredibly grateful for every lesson this year, and I wouldn’t change it, even though it’s given me more obstacles and many things haven’t gone the way I hoped they would. I know that at the end of the day, the way life pans out is usually for our best, and when life situations don’t go the way we had hoped, it’s because something greater is in store.
I’ve learned this year that happiness is not a destination, just a feeling that comes and goes. I’ve had many moments this year that have brought joy: my first speaking engagement in my career at a women’s conference (something I want to do a lot more of), traveling to Europe, standing by my sister on her wedding day, working with dream brands like SAKS and Maybelline, and being a tourist in my own city with my childhood best friends. But, I’d be doing an injustice to not acknowledge the moments that tested me, too.
I thrive off of feeling inspired and accomplishing what I set out to do, and when I’m not feeling any of that, I tend to turn inward and question my purpose. I’ve focused this year on relationships and put a lot of my worth in the success of them. So it makes sense that when I’ve lost people, as we all do with time, it tends to hurt a little deeper. I’m learning how to let go of the value I place on my acceptance of others. Self-worth isn’t based on what others think of me and instead comes from within. I haven’t quite mastered that one yet, but I’m working on it. And while I’ve always known I could be hard on myself, this year I worked to extend grace. Because it comes so naturally when given to others, but it’s a mission when I have to give it to myself. I’ve struggled with loneliness this year, but I’ve learned that at the end of the day I truly love my own company and that’s something I’m proud of. You’re allowed to feel two emotions at the same time, and my many quiet moments alone have taught me that. If quarter-life crisis’ are real, maybe that’s what this year has been a little bit of. But with that, I’m incredibly grateful for it all because it’s thickened my skin and taught me a lot. 26 lessons that I’m using to learn, grow and expand. Here we go.
I’m very much looking forward to turning over a new leaf and ready to take on this year with all it may bring. I feel more equipped now to deal with hard moments, because theyre inevitable in life, but grace is a beautiful thing and it’s important to remember to give it to ourselves in those moments. Looking forward to sharing more of my life here, as I’ve taken a bit of a step back in order to fully grasp all that I’ve been learning this year. As always, Thank you for reading.